I will no longer be blogging at YA Midnight Reads.
God, that is so heartbreaking to type. My reasons (even to this day) for my decision is cluttered, which I suppose with me is expected. Hah, I’ve never been the one to make simple clear cut choices and just move on without even a glance back. My decisions are often messy, with several reasons intertwined into some sort of semblance of a possible end game and a whole lot of questioning. It’s even harder when the subject is so close to my heart, which blogging undeniably is.
I honestly have been staring at this white screen for the past hour and a half. I don’t know where to begin, how to formulate all of the emotions going through my head into words nor how to adequately express myself and my feelings for whoever may be reading this. I suppose my main reason for my departure is the fact I feel it’s unfair to both Mel and Celine to have me continue as a member of this blog as I’m never around. I’m sporadic (at best) at commenting and posting. And the thing is- it’s summer for me… If I don’t have time now to commit to honestly the one thing I completely adore? I most definitely will have even less time when I start pre-law on September 8th. There’s some more personal issues involved my with decision to leave the blog but the aforementioned is my main reason. And certainly, this hasn’t been an easy choice to make.
Blogging has been a solid part of my life since Melanie graciously opened her arms and blog to me back in January 2014. Since then it really has been an whirlwind and honestly I can never fully verbalize my gratitude and love for Mel. She introduced and gave me an such an amazing platform for me to be unapologetically myself. YA Midnight Reads has been a space for me to honestly give my views on books and through that express my adoration and passion for literature. Through blogging my love and appreciation for well crafted stories has only grown. It’s certainly something that I don’t believe will change, just as reading for me has become something I can’t see my life without.
The blog has also been a place for me to create discussions, which honestly have hands-down been my favorite additions to YA Midnight Reads. I’m personally so proud of myself for having being able to address important issues in not only the book world but society itself, and being able to stand by views. I admit to going back to a few of my posts and being like “oh my god I can’t believe I wrote that.” Another thing I loved about the opportunity to create discussions is the fact the conversation never ended there. It continued on through the comments and a part of me hopes that somehow my words (however interpreted) have managed to create some sort of impact on the person who read them, even if minuscule.
Most importantly, is the blogging community and fellow bloggers. This is what makes this post so difficult to write as it’s truly the aforementioned that has left such an profound impact on myself. I know every community has drama and whatnot, the bookish world not being an exception. However, at its core the community is undeniably amazing and bursts with positivity in my view. I’ve received such support and love since joining this blog and AHHHHH. Talking to like-minded individuals and expressing shared passion is truly incredible. I can truly say true friendships have grown from this journey of mine and I can hope they will continue to grow despite the decision I’ve made. Seriously, I’ve made some super close friendships and I definitely don’t want them to just end. It’s why despite no longer being able to truly commit and be a part of YA Midnight Reads I know I just won’t be able to up and leave the community. I have no doubt I’ll still be reading blogs and trying my best to occasionally comment on them, as I truly adore the quality content that bloggers work so hard to share. Also I still will be active on Twitter, instagram and other forms of social media, so please come forward and talk to me.
So as the above has hopefully shown you, leaving YA Midnight Reads is not something easy for me. However, I don’t want to end my blogging journey here on a bleak note. I’d like to take this final moment to thank Mel and Celine for being so kind and supportive to me. They’re honestly the best co-bloggers anybody could ever hope for. I honestly can’t wait to see where YA Midnight Reads goes from here and I only expect that it will continue to grow in ways I can’t even imagine. Collaborating with you two has been a dream and I know this is just the beginning for y’all. I hope you both know how much I care about you and that this isn’t the end for us.
Good bye may seem forever. Farewell is like the end, but in my heart is the memory and there you will always be.
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