By: Larissa | August 28, 2015 | (81) Comments

Goodbye Larissa

I will no longer be blogging at YA Midnight Reads.

God, that is so heartbreaking to type. My reasons (even to this day) for my decision is cluttered, which I suppose with me is expected. Hah, I’ve never been the one to make simple clear cut choices and just move on without even a glance back. My decisions are often messy, with several reasons intertwined into some sort of semblance of a possible end game and a whole lot of questioning. It’s even harder when the subject is so close to my heart, which blogging undeniably is.

I honestly have been staring at this white screen for the past hour and a half. I don’t know where to begin, how to formulate all of the emotions going through my head into words nor how to adequately express myself and my feelings for whoever may be reading this. I suppose my main reason for my departure is the fact I feel it’s unfair to both Mel and Celine to have me continue as a member of this blog as I’m never around. I’m sporadic (at best) at commenting and posting. And the thing is- it’s summer for me… If I don’t have time now to commit to honestly the one thing I completely adore? I most definitely will have even less time when I start pre-law on September 8th. There’s some more personal issues involved my with decision to leave the blog but the aforementioned is my main reason. And certainly, this hasn’t been an easy choice to make.

Blogging has been a solid part of my life since Melanie graciously opened her arms and blog to me back in January 2014. Since then it really has been an whirlwind and honestly I can never fully verbalize my gratitude and love for Mel. She introduced and gave me an such an amazing platform for me to be unapologetically myself. YA Midnight Reads has been a space for me to honestly give my views on books and through that express my adoration and passion for literature. Through blogging my love and appreciation for well crafted stories has only grown. It’s certainly something that I don’t believe will change, just as reading for me has become  something I can’t see my life without.

The blog has also been a place for me to create discussions, which honestly have hands-down been my favorite additions to YA Midnight Reads. I’m personally so proud of myself for having being able to address important issues in not only the book world but society itself, and being able to stand by views.  I admit to going back to a few of my posts and being like “oh my god I can’t believe I wrote that.” Another thing I loved about the opportunity to create discussions is the fact the conversation never ended there. It continued on through the comments and a part of me hopes that somehow my words (however interpreted) have managed to create some sort of impact on the person who read them, even if minuscule.

Most importantly, is the blogging community and fellow bloggers. This is what makes this post so difficult to write as it’s truly the aforementioned that has left such an profound impact on myself. I know every community has drama and whatnot, the bookish world not being an exception. However, at its core the community is undeniably amazing and bursts with positivity in my view. I’ve received such support and love since joining this blog and AHHHHH. Talking to like-minded individuals and expressing shared passion is truly incredible. I can truly say true friendships have grown from this journey of mine and I can hope they will continue to grow despite the decision I’ve made. Seriously, I’ve made some super close friendships and I definitely don’t want them to just end. It’s why despite no longer being able to truly commit and be a part of YA Midnight Reads I know I just won’t be able to up and leave the community. I have no doubt I’ll still be reading blogs and trying my best to occasionally comment on them, as I truly adore the quality content that bloggers work so hard to share. Also I still will be active on Twitter, instagram and other forms of social media, so please come forward and talk to me.

So as the above has hopefully shown you, leaving YA Midnight Reads is not something easy for me. However, I don’t want to end my blogging journey here on a bleak note. I’d like to take this final moment to thank Mel and Celine for being so kind and supportive to me. They’re honestly the best co-bloggers anybody could ever hope for. I honestly can’t wait to see where YA Midnight Reads goes from here and I only expect that it will continue to grow in ways I can’t even imagine. Collaborating with you two has been a dream and I know this is just the beginning for y’all. I hope you both know how much I care about you and that this isn’t the end for us.

Good bye may seem forever. Farewell is like the end, but in my heart is the memory and there you will always be.

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Larissa was born and still is living in the land of ice, snow and maple syrup. She's 18 years old and really has no idea what to do with her life lately. Larissa's plans are constantly changing--though there’s one thing has remained constant throughout her seventeen years, and that’s reading. It takes her to another world and puts her into impossible situations and that’s why she loves it so much.

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81 Responses to I Guess This Is Goodbye

  1. Kelly says:

    Oh Larissa, you poor poppet. I know how heartbreaking this decision must have been for you, you sound like you’ve got an incredibly heavy heart. YA Midnight Reads won’t be the same without your kick ass feministic approach, fighting the good fight for the little person and taking a stand. I’ll miss that most of all. But knowing someone like yourself is going down that path of legality and will be out in the big bad world fighting for others fills me with such hope and pride, you were born to make a difference. I’m so glad you were able to make this decision though, rather than seeing you struggle between blogging and studies. But please don’t be a stranger. I’ll miss you, but this isn’t goodbye, it’s just a see you for now <3 <3
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    • Larissa says:

      <3333 It definitely was not a decision I made lightly. And awwww girl that comment you made about me taking a stand and fighting for the little person? Brought me close to tears because that's always what I wanted to do and I'm so glad you see it. AND OH MY GOD KELLY YOU'RE MAKING ME SO EMOTIONAL :'] I do hope I do make a difference through law.

      YES <33 I'm definitely not disappearing on you. I want to keep on talking to you girl

  2. Aaahw, this is so sad! 🙁 I’ll miss you!
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  3. I’m definitely going to miss all your interesting discussion posts, but I wish you all the best Larissa – and we’ll be talking on Twitter for sure!
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    • Larissa says:

      Omg I’ll definitely miss you and all of your passion for fairytales and everything Disney <33 You're honestly such a sweetheart and I've loved getting to know you, even if I've been MIA on your blog lately.

      Twitter is a must!

  4. Oh, that must have been such a hard decision… I’m certainly going to miss your posts but you have to do what’s best for you! And I wish you all the best, I hope you’ll do really well in pre-law. All of the best of luck to you Larissa!
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  5. Oh, I will miss you Larissa! But I completely understand your reasons. They make perfect sense — and in the end, I know that this must have been a really, really difficult decision fro you to make. I’ve loved your posts 🙂
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  6. It’s always hard to make decisions like these. I can completely understand why you’ve decided to leave. I know I never really comment much but I did really love reading all your posts. Good luck with your college endeavours!
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  7. I wish you all the best, Larissa. I’ve only been a follower of this blog in the last year or so, but I’ve come to appreciate your insights on books and anything book related.

    You will be missed.
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  8. Aw, it is so difficult to make these type of decisions. I’m glad you’ll still be around social media! We’ll miss your posts. I wish you all the happiness for the future!
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    • Larissa says:

      Yeah, it definitely wasn’t easy for me in the slightest. But yes, you’ll certainly see me around online on social media. Hah, I’ll need the stress relief. Thank you so much! <33

  9. This must have been such a tough decision for you, Larissa, and we’ll all miss you posts, but it sounds like it was for the best. Blogging can take up so much time and can get really busy. Your discussion posts on here were some of the most thoughtful and thought provoking discussion posts I read, and I thoroughly enjoyed reading them. Good luck at school!
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    • Larissa says:

      It definitely wasn’t a decision I made lightly haha. Blogging really is a commitment and I just felt like not being able to fully commit was unfair to the lovely Mel & Celine who both work so hard. <3333 thank you loads for the comments on my discussions and for the well wishes (:

  10. Aww Larissa this makes me so sad. You’re an amazing person, and your discussion posts are my favorites to read. I’ll miss you, but we MUST talk more on Twitter <3

    • Larissa says:

      <3333 Thank you so much girl, it means so much that you enjoyed my posts. I'll defs miss you too and YES WE MUST KEEP IN TOUCH GIRL. Haha, I kinda suck at Twitter but hopefully we'll see an improvement.

  11. I am pretty sure that Mel and Celine will miss you. I will, too! I know how hard it is to say goodbye, and you may not have the clearest of reasons, but I’m wishing you all the luck with whatever you do next. I hope we still see you tweeting 🙂
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    • Larissa says:

      Awwww <33 I'll miss you too Dre. Saying goodbye is certainly something that didn't come easy for me. Lol like this post literally took me eons to draft up. Thank you loads for the well wishes <33

  12. Larissa, I’m so sorry you are leaving YA Midnight Reads. I wish you all the best. You will be missed.
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    • Larissa says:

      Awww thank you girl! I will definitely miss all of the lovely readers/commentators of YA Midnight Reads. They truly made this experience the best.

  13. Renee says:

    So sad!!!!

  14. Heidi says:

    Best of luck, Larissa in your future endeavors. I’m sure you will continue to blossom.
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  15. Awwww, I’m sad to see you go. Your discussion posts were always so entertaining. I wish you nothing but the best with your future endeavors. Take care! You will be missed! 🙂
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  16. I’M GONNA MISS YOU SO MUCH, LARISSA!!! *wails like a dying cacti* But still, I understand things get busy and life changes and and and yesss. JUST YEAH. I’VE LOVED READING ALL YOUR POSTS. And you’re an amazing blogger and person and just awesome and GAH! I’LL MISS YA. But continue to stalk you on twitter and instagram and the rest. 🙂 GOOD LUCK WITH PRE-LAW TOO!!! Omg. *tackle hugs you*
    *runs off sobbing*
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    • Larissa says:


      yes stalk me [;

      *hugs for days*

  17. Vane says:

    You will be missed, but I totally understand your reasons. What’s even sadder is that even though I read your posts, I never commented on them, but I will still miss you. Good luck with life’s turns!
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    • Larissa says:

      Awwww <33 I'll miss you too girl, you should definitely hit me up on twitter or whatever so we can grow closer. I've totally read a few of your reviews on goodreads and loved them.

  18. It’s sad to hear that you’re leaving, but you have to do what’s best for you. I’ll miss reading your discussions! But you never know, you might feel like writing a guest post sometime. 🙂 (I can hope) I wish you the best of luck with all that you do. It would be awesome to know a lawyer!
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    • Larissa says:

      Yeah it really is heartbreaking, at least for me :[ I’ll miss your lovely comments Molly. And guest posts are certainly appealing to me. Thank you so much for the well wishes girl <33

  19. I’m sorry to hear you are no longer going to be blogging, Larissa, but I completely understand. It’s difficult to be in school and blog at the same time – not to mention everything else that goes on in life. Best of luck in pre-law!
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  20. First off all, thank you to everything you’ve wrote and done for this blog. I haven’t been reading this blog for too long (5 months maybe?) and I have really enjoyed reading your posts. Hopefully I will see you on the twitters! All good things must come to an end but this is a beginning of a new chapter! (That was super cheesy, sorry haha) Farewell (for now)! 😉

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    • Larissa says:

      <3333 It means so much to me that you've enjoyed my posts and the effort I've put into them. I would like to see you on twitter too c: The cheese is too true though haha.

  21. Good luck in school, and be sure to keep stopping and chatting with us!
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  22. OMG LARISSA THIS IS SO SO SAD. X( You are such a wonderful person and a very fabulous blogger and I will miss you SO MUCH. :'( I hope everything goes ok with Pre-Law and that you rock the world with your awesomeness!! <3333
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    • Larissa says:

      I know 🙁 It’s been quite some time since I typed this post up and it still is so difficult to read. I will miss you too Ella, please keep in touch. Thank you so much lovely

  23. Salwa M. says:

    Thanks for sharing your thoughts with us! It’s great that you were able to make such a decision. I can relate to this as I often find myself questioning my life (aka finding it hard to make firm decisions re my future) these days. I know how stressful school can be sometimes. Good luck with pre-law, hon! 😉

    • Larissa says:

      No problem, it just felt necessary unfortunately. And I couldn’t leave without saying goodbye officially to everyone. And ugh yeah, I have a feeling school will definitely cause a whole lot of stress for me soon.

  24. ??? Larissa, you know you are one of my favorite bloggers in the blogosphere, so I am so, so, so sad to see you go. Your posts are always the highlight of my day, and I love reading your intelligent and articulate thoughts. I hope that even if you aren’t going to continue blogging that you at least continue reading. Good luck with everything – although you’re so smart and resourceful I doubt you’ll need it. 😉 Let me know how everything goes, okay? ♥♥♥
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    • Larissa says:

      <33333 ZOE YOU SWEET ANGEL YOU. You're one of my favorites too as you better know. I love your blog and I swear I read every post. It means so much that you feel the same way towards my posts omg <3333333333 I definitely will be reading, currently am trying to find my way through Lair of Dreams. Thank you lovely, and you better stay in touch

  25. You will be missed Larissa, but I understand completely why you need to say good bye. Blogging does take up a lot of time and even though it is a hobby, it is a huge commitment. Good luck with your pre-law studies and I hope your future is bright and wonderful.
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    • Larissa says:

      <33 I'll miss you and your lovely comments. Blogging really is a commitment and I personally found it unfair I couldn't do it as much as I would have like for Mel and Celine. Thank you girl <33

  26. I’m not crying. It’s raining right on my face, that’s all. Fine, whatever, I am crying, because I am going to miss the hell out of you. Your discussions were always the BEST- I’d get giddy when one popped up in my email 🙂 And you are always so sweet, responding back to my novel-length comments, and you’re just amazing and I don’t want you to go. (Clearly, I don’t handle change well!)

    But I get it, I do! I am so, so impressed that you’ll be a lawyer someday. Clearly, I’ll know who to call when I get myself into some kind of kerfuffle 😉 School is definitely a time suck, and it’s really great that you know your limits- it bodes well for the future!

    Just… don’t vanish, okay? And if you ever get the urge to discuss something, you’re always welcome to guest post- I love a guest post! I wish you all the success in the world- you deserve it!! <3 <3 <3
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    • Larissa says:

      Shannon… oh my god I’m going to miss you so much. TWEET ME, MESSAGE ME ETC. CAUSE OH MY GOD I LOVE YOU SO MUCH GIRL. Your novel comments made my life, it’s always been so much to respond to your thoughtful words and really with them I felt I was having truly meaningful conversation. Haha, I don’t handle change well either why I couldn’t just leave the bloggy world forever- I’m still creeping around LOL.

      Hahaha don’t worry Shannon, I will definitely have your back in court [; And yeah honestly I could have pretended I would be fine balancing the blog and school….but yeah no. It would have been disastrous haha.

      And yes! A few people have mentioned writing guest posts and it’s something I’m certainly into. Thank you so much girl <33

  27. I am so sorry that you are leaving, but I completely understand your reasons. We will miss you!
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  28. It’s really sad to see you leave, Larissa! 🙁 Your discussion posts are definitely one of the best, and I always look forward to read it. I understand why you leave, though. We’ll miss you, and good luck with your school! <3
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  29. Oh Larissa, when I saw your tweet the other day I wondered whether it was because you were going to quit blogging. Blogging is not something that is easy to continue long term, but I’m so glad you’ll be around on Twitter and Instagram still. You have created the most amazing discussions and I have appreciated every single one of your comments. Thank you for spending your slice of time with us. I will miss you around here but I know that we’ll still be in touch. So much love for you xoxo
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    • Larissa says:

      Girl you must be a fortune teller, haha I could totally tell you knew what was up with my cryptic tweet. And yeah blogging wasn’t something easy for me to give up :[ Thank you so much for all of the nice words, AND AWWWW JEANN I’M GOING TO MISS YOUR SWEETNESS SO MUCH. Love you <3333333

  30. Rashika says:

    *sends hugs*
    I have loved getting to know you over the past year and a half, Larissa and I am so sad that you are leaving BUT I completely understand where you’re coming from!

    ESPECIALLY if you’re planning on doing pre-law!

    I hope that this isn’t the end for us though and that we can continue talking on twitter and ALL the other places <3

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    • Larissa says:

      *bear hugs back*

      Me too omg Rashika <33 I love talking to you whether it was about books or our addictions to certain apps [; You've become such a great friend too me.

      I hope so girl! You better keep in touch cause I don't want to loose you.

      HAHA YOUR LAST COMMENT REMINDED ME OF THE NOTEBOOK. if you're a bird...i'm a bird [;

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  32. Celine says:

    I’m gonna miss you, girl <33 Know you can come back to YMR any time you want, and keep us updated on university life 😀

    *gets a bit teary-eyed* Everything you said about Mel and me applies to you too. You've been an amazing coblogger and I've always love-love-loved your discussions. All the best to you, Larissa <33

    • Larissa says:

      Awwww <33 you know i'm gonna miss you and Mel to bits. Y'ALL ARE THE BEST CO-BLOGGERS IN THE HISTORY IN EVER. And yes, I'm definitely considering guest posting at YMR.

      <33333 Thank you so much sweetheart

  33. You’re doing what you know is best for you, even though it’s a terribly hard decision to stop blogging. I’m sure someday you’ll pick it up again. Best of luck to pre-law. Go rock it!
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    • Larissa says:

      That was my thought process when I was typing this post, I’m so glad you get it Mallory, and I have no doubts I’ll return to blogging some day. I love it too much not to. Thank you girl! <33

  34. Hannah says:

    All the best for your future ventures!
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  35. Jules says:

    I know that we haven’t really interacted much lately, (and I understand how UNI can take away our time when it comes to blogging) but it saddens me to see you out of this blog! You’ve always been friendly and up to some dose of fangirling in twitter! I hope that we still get to chat in twitter even if you’re not going to be blogging here anymore! <3 We will miss you Larissa! 😀
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    • Larissa says:

      Awww Jules <33 I'll miss you and we should definitely catch up on twitter girl. And yeah uni is certainly gonna take up my time, I think my social life is going to completely disappear hah.

  36. Valerie says:


    I am so sad right now. I am just hoping that I will still see you on Twitter and Google Hangouts, hopefully?? 🙁 🙁 🙁

    I wish you the best of luck with classes!
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    • Larissa says:

      I LOVE YOU TOO VAL ~~~~~~~~~


      Thanks so much lovely <33

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    If I’m being completely honest right here, I actually just drafted a post and you were supposed to be a part of it. D:

    You’ve been such an awesome friend and person in general. I always looked forward to seeing your posts and tweets on Twitter. I love talking to you so much! Please do stick around even just on social media. <3

    Whoa, pre-law. Girl, that's definitely a huge commitment, and I understand. Best of luck–you're going to rock it. <3
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    • Larissa says:


      I know girl haha <33 you still included me which made me smile but reading previous blogger at YA midnight reads...omg such the feels. AND AIMEE IF I HAVEN'T MADE IT CLEAR YOU'RE LITERALLY LIKE MY FAVORITE PERSON IN THE BLOGGY WORLD LIKE OF COURSE I WANT TO STAY IN TOUCH AND CONTINUE TALKING <3333333

      And yes pre-law ahhhhh. My life is literally gonna be school, study, sleep, repeat. No social life whatsoever or time for anything fun awww. Thank you though <33

  39. Kat Snark says:

    Larissa, I know how hard a decision this must be, as a blogger myself. I hope that you remain in the community for awhile! Are you going to do some Guest Posts on yamidnightreads? Good luck on your newest adventure!! xxx

  40. Laura W says:

    Awwww Larissa I’ll miss you so much!! Come back and visit every once and a while here! You’ll always be a part of the Midnight Reads team!

    Laura @BlueEyeBooks
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  42. Larissa, it was such a sad day when you told us about your decision. But as hard as it is for you and for the rest of us, we completely understand. People come and go, but friendships are forever, and I’m thankful that at least you’ll still be there on Twitter <3
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  43. Amber Elise says:

    Sad to see you go Larissa! I really enjoyed your discussion posts and I hope to see you again on the blogosphere.
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  44. I teared a little [lot]

    I never really got to know you but i always loved your posts. they were so insightful, well written and i aspire to be as honest and kind as you are in the way you write. all the best luck to your future endeavors and who knows? maybe the day you return is sooner than we think.
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  45. Ack, I’m really late to this but I still want to say goodbye, Larissa! I haven’t known you for long but I always remember that one exceptionally sassy and sarcastic voice from YA Midnight Reads, your posts are always a hoot.

    I totally understand your reasons for leaving though. Sometimes life is a lot and things happen. I feel so happy that you enjoyed blogging so much and you’re so emotional about it, it’s heart-warming to read about.

    Ahh, goodbye and good luck with your future, Larissa! (◡﹏◡✿)
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